My Anorexic Story!
Here is a peak into my history of eatingdisorders. This is the story of me... In a few words. You have heard it before, but still I'm different. I am 23 right now, but I have been dealing with this for almost as long as I can remember. when I was about 11 I didn't know how to deal with my pain and feelings. So I turned to food. when I got home from school I turned to the cupboards for something to chew, to eat... To make me not think about anything else! I did this for years. Not really knowing why I did it. Occasionally I would try to diet and lose weight. I was flirting with the obsession of losing weight and being thin. When I was 17 I really did it. Didn't eat for a week, lost some weight, and I was really trapped in my own world consisting of hiding and avoiding food. Food was my enemy, and I was spellbound 24/7. Slowly people started to notise what I was doing. I was sent to the school's doctor. My weight went up and down. I was starving, bingeing and purging and using laxatives. After seeing the school's doctor for a year, he wanted me to be admitted to hospital. But there was no place for me. Not for 8 months... I stayed at the hospital for six months. Not much better when I got out... I kept losing weight that summer, and in september '04 I was admitted again. But this time against my will! I stayed there for 8 months. I had gained about 25 pounds, but in my head I was still anorexic. But something was better... I was actually living a bit that summer. I started ...
August 28th, 2009 - 04:56
I don’t think laxative use is wrong at all. I’ve tried vomiting but it is hard to induce.
September 3rd, 2009 - 04:06
laxatvies do not work they only get rid of water weight. All the nutrients, fat, calories, carbs in the food has been absorbed once it has passed through your system. You will also become dependent on the laxatives and causing irreversible damage to your digestive system! Dehydration and loss of potassium is another side effect of purging and that can cause seizures, heart failure and brain damage. I know all to well about seizures and heart problems myself…
laxatives do not work! stop it now!
September 9th, 2009 - 03:06
well then clearly you have little intelligence
September 9th, 2009 - 03:06
sweetie your video made me sad. please keep fighting for recovery.
September 19th, 2009 - 22:59
Thank you! I will keep on fighting! :)
October 10th, 2009 - 01:18
good girl. that makes me happy to hear.
October 13th, 2009 - 14:46
Best of luck in everything you do. keep believing in hope, you gave me hope! thank you.
October 25th, 2009 - 04:28
Thank you for posting this video! Good luck to you! And…your smile is beautiful! :)
November 4th, 2009 - 01:14
Thank you for your story you are very inspiring the best of luck to you in your recovery.
December 17th, 2009 - 09:52
good luck with everything, besides hope, you are too beautiful to give-up. all the strength to you.
December 19th, 2009 - 21:52
Keep on fighting…
Im living proof that it only gets better from now! Dont be scared or worried, I know its hard but stick at it.
i’am 16 years old and im in my second year of recovery. Good Luck!
PS: message me, if you need someone to talk too.. :)
December 21st, 2009 - 22:56
My heart goes out to you, girl! Your last words are so meaningful – HOPE, you have to hang on to that, because it is true, and you are going to turn the corner from this evil disease and have the happy life you deserve. Don’t give up!
December 26th, 2009 - 01:55
the only reason women starve themselves to loose weight is if they feel there fat or most likely guys and girls at skool or in there lives make them feel fat there’s way too much pressure on girls to look perfect but they should no change themselves just to look perfect no is perfect
December 26th, 2009 - 23:34
beautiful words and thank you for sharing this…i can relate so much, my heart goes out to you girl! you can beat this, there is always hope! we must never give up :)
January 14th, 2010 - 20:14
good luck.. your inspiring.
January 19th, 2010 - 07:14
I hope everything works out for the best i think you can do it and if you just need to talk to someone without all the therapist or things like that I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, high blood pressure and Insomnia I live from pill to pill I have been in and out of therapy for years I was sent to a mental hospital about a year ago for attempted suicide The sad thing is, is that im only 17 and I have been carrying this for years and sometimes its just hard to take a breath your not alone
February 3rd, 2010 - 02:07
You have such a beautiful face.
I truely believe you will make it through.
I wish you the best of luck.
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February 12th, 2010 - 04:24
that right there is why some ppl starve themselves. time and time again theyre told they have such a ‘pretty face’ or a ‘pretty smile’ yet nothing else. thats all they are, just a face until they diet.
March 4th, 2010 - 00:43
so you mean some of them do that to be something MORE than just a ‘pretty face’ or a ‘pretty smile’?! I didn’t get it. I thought they starve themselves TO BE beautiful.
March 4th, 2010 - 04:23
starvation will lead to beauty. but we get tired of being told we have a pretty face. when people say that they may as well be telling us thats the only good thing about us, that the rest of us is super fat. so we diet to make our bodies match our faces.
May 5th, 2010 - 15:04
Some people comment your appearance, some comment pictures, some comment music and so on….What I want to say is that the fact that you share your experience is already a good sign, a way to real happy life, which you deserve.I wish you health, peace in your mind and love!:)
May 6th, 2010 - 19:28
I’m a recovered anorexic/bulimic myself. I had a six year battle and almost lost my life twice. At my worst, I was taking 60 laxatives a day. I’ve been doing well for 8 years now. If I can do it, you can too!!! Keep on fighting. You are a beautiful young girl and you have so much to live for. So start living!!! :)
June 3rd, 2010 - 02:27
Once you find another important goal to focus on instead of weight or foods you will gain more controls :)
October 4th, 2010 - 03:48
I really hope you are better now- I am a recovered anorexic, after having battled for nearly 5 years, and I know how painful it is, the times when there is nothing to live for, all you want is to die, but there IS a light at the end of the tunnel, and I promise it’s worth fighting to get there, because when you do eventually get there, it is like being born again, you are free. I cannot describe it really, just don’t give up, you are stronger than Ana, and you deserve freedom xxxxx
October 24th, 2010 - 04:02
@rachaelwhite1 girls im a boy stop thinking your fat please please please i beg you YOUR NOT FAT im not being rude but it dont matter to guys as long as you have a good personality